I Met Myself

I MET MYSELF!

I wrote this because a great friend of mineVirginia Ashby a wonderful jazz and R &B vocalist. I was about to sing at one of her awesome shows, and made the statement that I did not have any new material and had no idea what to sing! Virginia said " do you know who you are, have you met yourself"? That night I went home and I wrote this:

I met myself today! What a person I am always having advice for everyone and in the mist of that I was leaving myself out of the picture. I have found love for others and friendships leading to love and so fourth and so on. I have not however! found a love for myself. I mean I know all the things that it takes to have a great wonderful love life. I just have not put fourth the effort to help myself. I think that I am really deep down inside, may be just a little afraid, I mean all the baggage that I tell my friends not to take into a relationship, I might just do that! Not to sweet the little things, I might just do that! and not to take a lot of bull crap might do that!

So what is in store for me? Well I am just as important as everyone else. I met myself today and yes I am lonely but not depress or deprived. I would love to meet someone that I could share my thoughts and desires with, someone that I could laugh with and talk to without being judged, I met myself today and I am quite a gal, I love myself and I enjoy being around me, so I think I am ready for the big step. I am looking for the love of my life, I have not found him so I know he is out there somewhere! I refuse to think that is too late for me! Hell I am only 63. Just trying to keep my mind from having a talk with my body lol. What a day that would be, talking about a melt down!! I am going to lose 80 pounds( I am really trying). I still want to write a book, and still want to make another blues CD. I still want to spend the weekend in a cabin by the ocean, still want to be kissed while dancing in the middle of a ballroom floor, and still want to bath with rose petals! Oh well I know! I am still growing up and loving it. I am a mom an grand mom, a great grand mom, a blues singer and I write poetry, I enjoy life to the fullest. I think I am a good catch. No! this is not a profile for love. Just wanted to say I met myself today. Wow! awesome.
Meet yourself you may like who you are.

It has been a while!!

Well everyone I am back! Changing my profile picture and everything lol. I started this blogging thing some months back. I was so excited and then my mind went blank.. Maybe I was afriad of not being a great writer or maybe I thought that no one wanted to hear what I had to say. Well I am going to stick with it this time. everyone has his or her opition so, I am going to try it again, and I welcome your comments. God Bless have a wonderful day. And I might add any advice!!!!!

The Yard is waking up!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE EXPRESSIONS

Good Afternoon! I wrote these poems to validate years of knowing and not knowing love, just going along with rather than enjoying the essence of a great relationship. Thank God for fantasies! they keep you going and now I want to share with you some of my love expressions!

Let me know what you think

God Bless

Doris "Peaches" Gray

BECAUSE OF YOU

Because of you

I awake unable to sleep

I think of you in my dreams

Because of you

I am entangled in your love, unable to function

made sweet love to me, and!

Because of you

I am hopelessly in love, you sat in the middle of my soul.

I held your heart in the palm of my hand

"AND CHRISTMAS CAME EARLY"

Because of you

There are no limits to my desires. I have endless fantasies

I no longer hunger for your presence. You are forever in my heart

and, because of you there will always be because of us in love.

TOGETHER!

CC

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THE MAN NOT YET KNOWN

This is dedicated to the man not yet known: from the bottom of my heart

I love you, for it was in my heart that I created you from the start.

I watched the sun go down, the clouds tucked themselves in for the night.

I saw the eyes if the man not yet known.

The tress sway with the smooth motion of the wind.

I feel the passion, as the crispness in the air sharpens!

I embrace the man not yet known.

Sunlight turns to into sunset, sunset into moonlight

In awe of the moment

I kiss the man not yet known.

We whisper in the silence of the night and listen to

musical love notes from afar.

In my deepest fantasy I am loved by the man not yet known.

CC

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LET'S TALK!

Your presence enlightens my mind and my body

I look at you and feel a special bond that makes me lust for

your body while I explore your mind and feel the fantasies that arouse me

Let's Talk!

Each time I see you, I feel your touch, but you are unaware that I exist

and I am unaware of how you may feel. You continue to walk in and

out of my life, while I walk with visions shining deep within my

dreams! If only they were real when reality slips in.

Let's Talk

When I see you enter the room I lust for your body but I am in desperate

need of a mental climaxing.

Let's Talk

CC

Several Thoughts: Life is just to short

I am finally working on my book of Love Expressions poems. I had put it off for different reasons, one being that I thought I could not do it.
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In 2005 I was on the brink of not knowing what was going to happen to me. I felt like everything was caving in. My children live in Chicago and I wanted them to all way be proud of me and I was not doing well. God sent me four angels. Betty, Donna, Rick and Kirk. I went from despair to being very blessed and grateful. You never know where your blessings will come, they are my extended family.
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Married at 19 years of age and divorced after 13 years, it took me few years! okay a lot of years to actually find myself, I guess that's what you call it! I am now 62 years young, I want to go to the spa and get a facial and massage and enjoy the pleasure of it all. I went to the ocean for the first time last year, it was awesome. I have never been camping, I still want to fall in love with that special someone. Little things make me happy and make me smile and thank God if I do meet that special someone and fall in love, I have learned enough over the years to be in love for the rest of my life. I am still growing up!
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I love to sing blues and jazz, I started singing when I was 50 years old. I know a little late huh!
I go to weekly blues and jazz jams and have been in three bands. I want to build a studio and have jams all the time.
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I want my children to move to Washington State, it would be less stressful for them, I could see them all the time and help raise my grandchildren.
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My son lost his wife (Tasha) in 2005, I lost my Mother and my oldest brother in 2006.. They passed away on the same day a month apart. It seems as if family and friends are disappearing and I can't make since of it all. So remember to live life to the fullest and everyday do something you have not done. Never really grow up!
Don't spend all your time trying not to die, you may forget to live. I will be posting poems and just random thoughts and hope I can touch some lives. I am not a very strong writer but I love doing it and welcome all your comments.
God Bless
Doris "Peaches" Gray